The Mosquito Bite and The Run out From The Apartment Mesahill

I was tired and really exhausted during the day, and I ended up sleeping on the sofa. I was still unsure about the cleanliness of the place where I was staying. Strange things began to happen after I woke up and saw a red bump all over my legs. I quickly grabbed the Multipurpose Gel Bidara Bioshifax that I had brought with me before I decided to leave my parents' house.

It was a call for me to seek truth and guidance about what I was supposed to do and what potential I was seeking. Plus, the apartment near organic foods and grocery stores added some comfort to me because I was in a crisis. I was on the verge of having a panic attack when my father scared me off by threatening me about how dangerous the outside world was. I knew about some men who were not functioning well, and all from his words I only saw his image that he drew on me. I told myself, the world outside can't be dangerous.

And I was hurt the day I caught him lurking over my windows doing self-care. He was being told by his friend about his daughter needing to watch out.

I still couldn't figure out why he was so keen on taking me into his circle while he was having a hard time feeding us all. I wanted good clothes, I didn't want to cry only to get the dream clothes I wanted. I don't need that. Why? I don't understand why my father was acting that way. I have been looking for fatherhood in him since forever.

But maybe, My Lord, I don't know what to say anymore. He's hurtful to me, my anxiety spikes and causes me to have an attack during my sleep and seizure. I really don't know what the cause was. Lord, I was only looking for someone I could trust, and that was in me.

Days later, the red bump has faded away. Alhamdulillah, I found relief. One night, my dad was planning to get us all some food at the restaurant. We waited there for who knows how long, until dusk arose. I went outside to see little kids playing around. I am not joking when I got back home and suddenly I noticed a strange figure. My mind started playing tricks on me. It wasn't there before, I can tell you from the beginning I stayed there for couple of weeks it was the first day I saw that.

During that day, at 3 am in the morning, I felt a strange electricity running through my feet and then through my brain after having a hard time waking up to work on my routine. I was just unable to wake up until the strange gem that I had been taking was under my pillow, all due to the fears I had endured.

The first thing I saw was a bed net. I was honestly tired and exhausted after walking miles away from the apartment. My legs were in pain, and my head was throbbing. I drew with my head, because that's what I saw. I drew the words on my forehead because that's what I saw in front of me, even though it was invisible.

Later, I began to see the world through other realms, especially UFOs and bats flying through the night sky. I was speechless. My mind kept asking me why and what was going on. But my head was just telling me things about the CCTV that I had been caught on. If I could tell you the whole story, it would sound ridiculous, but it's not.

I stretched when I was sleeping, and that's how I got through another day that needed healing. Sometimes, I would sit there blankly, thinking over and over what was happening to me. I was being told things, and I felt annoyed during the days about what had taken over me. I was afraid to tell anyone about this. But hey, those pictures that my friend misunderstood were on public. I mean, can't they not send all those sensitive pictures on public? It's no joke how it's endured in one head.

I don't know anymore. After I went through some mild concussion on my table desk, I had a seizure during the day before I decided to move out. All I wanted was to bathe in the ocean, and that's what Pn. Roslina had told us. She said that we were exposed to high exposure of electronic that caused an electric shock when we touched steel surfaces like doorknobs and keys.

- The Man Outisde My Window (2004) Rose Alluria